The Rain is Falling
Part Three - I Believe
By Lady Kuja
Disclaimer: All of Final Fantasy 9 characters belong to Squaresoft. Not me... Damn! So don't sue me!
Warning! This fic has yaoi implications. Seriously! It is from Kuja's point of view, thinking about Zidane. I decided to be kind and not include anything NC-17ish. SO... well Kuja comes around and... er...read on... heh heh heh... ^_~
The Rain is Falling
Part Three - I Believe
By Lady Kuja
As the light fades, I feel myself consumed by darkness...falling... endlessly...
Zidane's face flashes before my eyes...his voice, musical notes to my aching ears, spreads like affectionate kisses through me... I shiver at the feeling... it seemed so real...yet wrong...
Zidane... why do you have to go whenever I find you? Please stay... don't leave...Zidane... I am pining for you, my love... please hear my voice... Zidane... I know you're not gone... where are you, my brother? Why won't you wait for me, my angel? Do you hate me? Please tell me...
I woke... in darkness. Damp air heavy against me. Moist grass underneath, causing me to shiver. Zidane? I did not look around, for fear of seeing your face, driving me mad for you. I know if I see you again, I would die... for you will not stay and comfort me... I don't understand... why are you doing this to me... I am angry at you, hating your cruel existence, yet I love you as a brother and my love... I cannot decide...
The icy wind bites into my face, stinging my cheeks... I know I am lost... I still cannot understand... What kind of a dream is this? Will it end? Where are you, Zidane?
I slowly get up... pain sears through my body, forcing me to scream... I must have fallen very deep...somewhere below that cliff... Who and what made me do it? Zidane...
It is then...I hear the footsteps, echoing around me...hollowly... slowly, it approaches... I wait... not realizing I am holding my breath...painfully... I see a shape... emerging from the frosty mist...barely visible... I squint, trying to make out who... it looks vaguely familiar...the shape, so like mine...that way of walking, those long, confident, yet cautious steps of a thief... a brother...Zidane...
I feel faint... you are here...at last... my heart thumps against my chest, faster and more eager... urging you to hurry... Zidane... I made an attempt to rise, but my ribs cracked...I gasp, eyes watering... hazy with pain...
Arms slips around me, lifting me slightly...then gradually laying me down... through the miasma of pain I gaze up...Zidane!
My cracked lips try to bring forth sound, but it freezes on the edge of my tongue... I chock...more tears softly roll down my cheeks... falling unto the arm beneath my head... just one drop... the other lingers on my face... a finger gently brushes it away...
I hear my name... on lovely lips... been whispered... by...him...
Kuja...
What you did was wrong...
But you gave me one thing...
Hope...
We were created for the wrong reason...
But you alone defied our fate...
I do not want to forget this...
I want your memory...
To live on forever inside me ...
To remind me that we were not
Created for the wrong reason --
That our lives have meaning...
Zidane... his words touch me within... somewhere deep underneath my skin... inside my mind... is it true? Did I do that? Does he really mean it? I want to believe and... I will... I can feel his hands stroking my face...fingers running smoothly through my hair... engulfing me in his embrace... I smile... for the first time...since...
1.1 Kuja...
I still love you...
More than ever...
I couldn't forget...
Brother...
The love you showed me...
The understanding and forgiveness...
I don't care what you did...
I love you for who you are...
But...
We must part
Forever...
We are different...
Our souls cannot mix...
Yet...
If you pray truly from your heart...
We will meet again
When we are reborn...
Let your heart decide...
Let it guide you...
Kuja...
No matter how hard...
No matter how painful...
Don't give up...
The last and only thing I can give you
Before we part
Is this...
Tender lips touch mine... Zidane... I open my mouth gratefully... it seemed only his kiss can quench my hunger and thirst... Like a new world opening up to me... The kiss will stay with me... but he is gone... not for long... I know... I believe him... I will be with him... and our hearts will always be together... our love will continue... for eternity... beyond time... further than death... nothing...nothing will ever come in our way... ... ...
-fin
What did you think? I think it's strange. But one thing is real... Love... well I'm not going to give away the whole plot for those who skipped the story... Ahem! Well anyway, if you HAVE read this final part... what did you think? Review!