Author's Note: This is a YAOI story, so please dont read it if you are likely to be upset by it. Thanks for reading.
FEEDBACK: The song used belongs to the Corrs and whoever wrote it. The lyrics included in this piece are the chorus lyrics, not the verses. Any detailed critisims should be e-mailed to me at crystal_misato @ hotmail.com , quick reviews are always appreciated though ^_^
Only When I Sleep
It's only when I sleep
I see you in my dreams
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside down
But I only hear you breath
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside down
But it's only when I sleep
I long for the day he smiles at me. Smiles at me because we are together, because we are one. Not because I have fallen at his feet, because again he is the victor. Just one smile, just one, would grant him that. When his gentle touch is all that will surrender my senses, and his voice in my ear will bring me to my knees. Then he would have won.
He would have won everything, and I would finally be at peace from this fighting. There's nothing left for me to understand about him. Blessed with such misfortune, and yet he still fights. Would my hand on his shoulder hinder him so much? Only he can tell me that. Until then the pain I feel as his silken fists bring me to my defeat, again and again, can only be soothed by my dreams.
Dreams of how it could be. Dreams of the day his fist unfolds itself onto my heart, and brings us together. Where we lie as one, our breaths united.
But I only hear you breath
Somewhere in my sleep
Could he do that?
Could he ever love me?
These questions all return when I open my eyes, his image fading away into another day. Another day of facing the reality. Of facing him, another pointless challenge. Another rejection.
So I don't open my eyes. He loves me only when I sleep. When we lie together in my dreams. His silken touch playing itself across my skin, his breath a sweet sea mist flowing over my senses, his deep, painfilled eyes locked with mine as our love cleanses them of all unhappiness.
It's only when I sleep
I see you in my dreams
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside down
But I awaken, another defeat at his hands. As I lie, still, fighting back the tears I can never cry, I see him walk away, leaving me alone in my pain once again. A glance over his shoulder, our eyes lock for a second, searching the others thoughts and feelings. I hold his gaze, but he turns away once more, intensifying my pain and torment, wishing I could just go back to sleep and be with him.
But I only hear you breath
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside down
But it's only when I sleep
Sleeping once more, I feel his touch again. It feels so real, yet it is all an illusion created by my mind, hoping one day it will all be a reality. One day the sweet lips pressing themselves against my tear streaked cheek will be his, one day the arms that hold me so close will be his, one day the heart that beats against mine will no longer be an illusion. It will be him.
But I only hear you breath
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside down
But it's only when I sleep
And the voice that whispers in my ear will be his.
But it's only when I sleep
And when my eyes open, his voice will play outside my dreams.
But it's only when I sleep
'I love you'
~fin~